Dried Out

My Lips---^ eww crooked teeth

My lips are very dry ...again. I thought this nightmare wasn't going to come back. Well, I suppose I have some...uh...experience as what to do. It's just so freaking annoying yah? I can't even eat right. I have to get small pieces and chew with my back teeth and I have to avoid eating anything crunchy or sticky. :-T There goes my Honey BBQ Chicken idea. Just kidding.

Right now they are in the begging stage where it slowly dries out and rips apart my whole bottom lip. Sooner or later it'll spread to the top. I have been trying to put on some Vaseline and some lip balm to help control it. But since I have a canker sore now on my upper lip it leaves my mouth to hang open from the swelling. Which! In turn leads my lips to dry faster. :-T It's a very painful experience I hope passes faster than the first time this has happened.

In other news I'm working on new art work! Woo hoo!? It's a small project but I'm slowly getting it done.

I also made plans to stop eating so unhealthy. I'm hoping some of my family members help me stay on track with this because it's hard to control by myself. I don't have much will power and in the beginning it'd be nice to have someone else show me that control. Like, help me with it. I am doing this because, well...I realized I am getting a bigger attitude problem. Like, I feel more like I'm getting angry faster and more aggressive. I think this is due to having high blood pressure from eating too much fast food. I really notice my personality changing dramatically and it scares me. I don't want to be such a...monster. Ha ha ha. Other than that, I want to also be able to breath better and be healthy. There is a big difference I know.
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I'm going to cut this short while I still can. Ha ha ha.
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Oh, my friend Richard found me after work yesterday. I accused him of stalking me, playfully of course. It was fun. Richard works at the game shop nearby where I work, I have known him for about a year now. He writes pretty amazing music! I want to download some of his songs so bad. I think he enjoys talking to me because I like to hear about his music and really like, encourage it. I don't think the rest of his friends really understand how much of a passion it is. It was cool having someone to walk home with, well...walk to the buss stop, ha ha ha. I'm not really used to hanging out with people even for a short time like that. I always find myself stammering when I speak and stuff. I think I have to work on my talking skills, ha ha ha. I'm just used to being a lone that's all.

Cough Hack Cough Cough

Well, for some strange reason I became sick...again. It's not fun...at all. I really want to be the way I always am but for some reason seem to be in some sort of depression pit. Like, it feels the same as when I did when I used to be depressed...not having the energy to do anything and what not. At this moment every couple of seconds I break out into a coughing frenzy. I'm actually surprised my mother let me go online. - 3 -

I'm not even sure if I'm in the mood to be online though, because my brain is like...dead and I can't think right. Like I'll start writing and then get totally off subject of what I'm trying to get across, ha ha ha. It's kind of embarrassing. And for some reason I have become really picky with what food I eat. For example, mom made salad for dinner. I normally would be starving by now and nom it all up, but at the moment I feel really disgusted just thinking about it. :-0

I have started on some new pictures...that I really want to finish to but have been to sick to finish. It's really annoying.

I would rant more but my fingers are getting numb, :-T

After Work

I just came home and what do I have to deal with? My dog crying and the television full blast. On the bus trip home I had so many ideas to draw but as soon as I came home to all this I feel automatically stressed out and unable to relax. Especially since my mother and my father are eating my dog is crying like crazy. And when little Sasha cries...she whines so high pitched you feel like your ears are going to start bleeding. I just started to listen to music to block her out but I can still hear her. (sigh)

Another canker sore decided to show itself this morning. It really is starting to become painful and annoying. It has never happened to me that I would get one right after recovering one. It was like a relapse of some sort. I just hope it learns to stay out of my way.

I am so glad I do not have to work tomorrow. I am exhausted and really need to draw something so that I can use the scanner on Monday. I really love putting up new work because it really helps my self esteem and motivates me to draw again. When I do not feel that there is the slightest reward, in anything I do, I do not do it. I don't know why...maybe I'm just not a very easily motivated person.

Today I ate some nachos from the snack shop. I think the man who works there is becoming quiet familiar with me. ha ha ha. We say hi to each other even when I'm not going to buy anything from him. I do wonder how he can stand there all day though. I go to work and see him standing there, I come home from work and see him standing there. He must get really bored, ha ha ha. I bought some nachos this morning from his shop and they were very delicious. In my opinion, his are the best ones around. :D They really make me happy! Ha ha ha. But then again I might just be getting a small high from all those chilies he puts in it. Ha ha ha.

But seriously, there is no other nachos that can compare.

I really hate that everyone in my family feels they need to shout when they communicate. I hope they aren't that hard of hearing. Seriously, nothing annoys me more than people shouting at each other when they are right there in the same room, there is no need for it and it just ends up annoying the rest of the people around them. Like me! Who is a very important people, Just kidding.

Well, I'm going to have to wrap...oh wait...there are these two girls who came back to work from vacation. I can't say I'm too proud about it. To be honest I think everyone was better off with them gone. They are really annoying and I just get bad vibes around them. Like something suspicious is going on.

Ok ok, I'm going to get in my pijamas now. And well...try to relax listening to some hard core rock music. Ha ha ha. Oh I drew a picture of Bone face yesterday..and he wont be shown anywhere else but here, ha ha ha.

My First Day

Well, today is my first day here on Blogger and I'm still trying to figure out how everything works and how to organize this stuff, ha ha ha. As everyone else must do when they join a new site.

I just needed something a little more personal to be writing in and I figured this place would have to do.

Hmm....That's all for now, ciao.